(3/100) I lost track of the time as last week came to an end.
The first week of the semester is always pretty hectic for me. I work to get all of my binders organized, my syllabi highlighted, and lecture one understood. This semester I had a new stressor to confront: an on campus course.
In high school, I dealt with illnesses that prevented me from going to school regularly. I spent a lot of time working on independent studies and online courses and had little social interaction (greatly due to my severe anxiety). After my graduation, I took some time off school to focus on my health. Spring of 2015 was when I decided to take my first semester of college courses – a huge step for me in my mental health journey. I decided that online courses were the best route for me; they allowed me to work relatively at my own pace and on my own schedule. This also allowed me to continue my education, something incredibly important to me, without going in to a busy, and incredibly overwhelming, campus setting. However, as I’ve mentioned here before, this is my last semester of GE courses and one of them (Public Speaking) is, for obvious reasons, not offered in an online format.
So yesterday, I faced going back into a classroom for the first time in over three years.
My anxiety had been through the roof all week and I could feel myself becoming panicky as I drove myself across town to the campus. However, something happened that I hadn’t expected. After I had been seated in the room for roughly 15 minutes I no longer felt frightened but rather I felt empowered.
Don’t get me wrong, it took all of my energy and willpower to walk through the door and stay seated for the entirety of the first day, I was anxious as hell. But the longer I sat there the more I realized that this was another win for me. I had conquered another fear and I was one step closer to where I hope to be in the coming year.
The high anxiety of yesterday left me pretty exhausted and worn out so today’s productivity is a bit different than usual. I’m spending my day crafting and lounging and creating some neat new pieces. Today’s productivity includes working on the things I love and being proud of myself and my small victories.
And for a small, yet shameless, self promotion all of the goodies I’m working on today will be listed in my shop by the end of this week. There’s already a bunch of neat stuff listed so feel to check it out and message me with any questions or special requests! Some of my personal favorites include: a lovely pink dream catcher adorned with turquoise elephant beads, some simple charm choker, a dreamy yin-yang painting, and the intricate triple layered dream catcher. All original, handmade pieces and all found on my etsy shop.
I hope everyone has a chance to relax this weekend and enjoy some well-deserved “me time”
And never forget to celebrate your personal victories, no matter how small.